In my crazy, I started to think about all the kids who are home for the time making their parents crazy with all the talking and no doubt fussing and all the things and I was jealous but for a moment.
Multiple issues have arisen in my house over the last couple weeks, not to mention grieving the death of my aunt. I've felt battered and sad. I've focused on this verse in particular, "So we don't look at the troubles we can see now, rather, we fix our gaze on things that cannot be seen. For the things we see now will soon be gone, but the things we cannot see will last forever." 2 Cor 4:18 (nlt)
I can't control the tiny body that my child struggles in, but I know the One who does. I can only do the best I can to protect her and take care of her and that's where I'll rest, for someday, she will be free from what ails her (as will those who have given their heart to Christ). I can't say I'm totally always at peace with a life that may not include her. My aunt loved Jesus, she gave her heart to Him. She was still afraid of dying. I get it. My heart understands it. I will focus on what lasts forever.