Dr.Gynecologist Visit

 Today we saw a new dr.  A new -ologist in our lives. First off, to those traveling via I65, do not drive to the other end of town to get on 65 as the on ramp is closed.  Let's just say I've now been to the actual towns of Dudleytown and Union town.  Took me 45 minutes to get to the Uniontown exit and travels through the countryside I have never seen, thank heavens I left extra early...thank you Holy Spirit for that prompting....back to your regulary scheduled update....

I did make a brief post on facebook last night about our "heavy" day.  It felt weighty to me.  We got to our appointment exactly on time.  They did her vitals and ushered us into a room where we sat for over an hour after her appointment time.  After I stuck my head out the door and asked if we were forgotten, the doctor arrived about five minutes later.  Of course, steam was slowly escaping my ears because I KNOW they would never hold her appointment time for an HOUR if we were that late, (that drive was stressful) I digress,  I relaxed and delved into the medical history of my child.  Why I think it will be an easy fix.  I, in fact, sat there wondering why we were even here.  I mean we got the shot going,  that will help her cycles, why are we here?  And then, the ball drops. The doctor starts informing us. 

The cycles are so heavy due to the Crohn's inflammation.  Her preferred treatment for Lillian specifically would not be the shot due to the fact that long term use of the shot causes osteoporosis.  Due to the fact that Lillian is so small and has little muscle mass, it's an extra risk.  She would prefer to place a medicated IUD under general anesthesia.  My next response is, if we go to surgery why not a hysterectomy or ablation?  I was not expecting her response at. all.  Those surgeries are major abdominal surgeries ( i know this) however, what I did not foresee was how extra dangerous it is for someone with Crohn's disease.  She said there is so much inflammation it would be very unsafe to perform a hysterectomy.  An ablation, which is where they cauterize (or burn) the inner lining of the uterus would only be effective for a few years and would cause a lot of scar tissue and would result in needing a hysterectomy in a few years anyway.

When we started discussing surgery, Lillian became very scared and started crying and was hanging on me for dear life.  I couldn't even talk about it to anyone later because the words surgery threw her into complete anxiety and tears. 

She is going to be scheduled for a bone density scan.  She's also already scheduled for an abdominal pelvic ultrasound in early September to prep for IUD,  

I don't feel settled about any of it.  I'm gutted, she has no choices and I have to decide which is the least worst option...not the best...no the least worst.  I'm sad.  This is hard.   Help me Jesus....this is hard.

The drive home was also a mess.  Delays on the interstate, nearly running out of gas, (although I left home with more than enough) more back road explorations....such a long day. I'm grateful for safe travel and that I did, in fact, make it to a gas station in time and that my GPS was actually accurate this time.  

One foot in front of the other and Jesus beside us.  That's what I hold on to.  Peace be still.