Next week

Next week we have an appointment with Pulmo and two days later we will be going in for the much anticipated V&E. This is a procedure where they will place a scope up her nose down to the back of her throat and watch where her tongue goes as she speaks. In a perfect world. Her ST says she is tolerating the qtip up the nose pretty good, but still the biggest hitch...she cannot say the words they want to hear for the testing. :/ I have been feeling a little out of sorts for the last couple of weeks. A little edgy if you will. I think deep down, its the test. So much hinges on the test. I keep telling myself that it doesn't matter. Nothing ventured, nothing gained. I want to not care if it is unsuccessful. It is not the end of the world if she doesn't speak. It also doesn't mean that someday the test can't be done again. Ready or not, it's coming up on Wednesday.