Saturday, June 6, 2009

It's 2:15am

Lillian spiked a high fever earlier this evening. I noticed her sitting strangely quiet in her chair during her breathing treatment. When I picked her up she was roasting. I gave her ibuprofen and she laid around for the rest of the night. She fell asleep around eleven, and now here I am having cleaned up her puky sheets and switching out the feeding for pedialyte. Here I am wondering...is this her ears, is this related to the surgery, is this some other virus....is she infected from some bubble drinking...
I was sitting by her side waiting for her to fall back into sleep wondering...wondering if her stares were seizures or just the sleepiness you fall into before you go to sleep. If her jerky movements are because she's chilling or something else is going on. Oh, LORD, how the fears creep in. I wonder, how long can a little body handle so much before it can take no more. I sit here wondering.

Lord continue to hold her in your arms, give her rest and healing. Give me peace.

8 comments:

  1. Heavenly Father
    Please step in and help Lillian and her family. Please undertake for them and may they know that underneath are Your everlasting arms.
    AMEN

    W McCallum

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  2. Just read your poem 'Laughter without sound' and it is really beautiful.

    I'm praying for you girls. xx

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  3. Michelle, I am so sorry to hear this . What now with this sweet girl. I am sending prayers your way, hang in there mama!!!

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  4. So not what I wanted to read this morning. I am praying for your sweet girl and for you, as always.

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  5. Michelle, I hope she is resting peacefully now and your getting some rest too. I'll be thinking about you.

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  6. Michelle - I hope you don't mind but I asked some friends to pray for Lillian and to likewise support your family in prayer.

    W McCallum

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  7. Heavenly Father I pray for Your healing touch on little Lillian's life. All praise and glory be to You in Jesus name, amen.

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  8. I am praying hard for you and Lillian.

    Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous fall. Psalm 55:22

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